Do you ever tend to look back on things? I'm sure a lot of people do. I keep going back to high school mentally. I was good at high school. I had great friends (not that I don't currently), people knew who I was (call me cocky), and I felt absolutely content with life. It was safe & secure. College is so different. I've only kept in touch with a handful of my friends from high school, but I guess that's to be expected. I miss the way things used to be; the mindless routine of things. Call me a has-been, but I just miss it all.
I love my college life, but it's so different. Some days I'm surprised I got through the day without babbling like a fool from losing my mind. I'm gonna tell myself that's just a normal thing for a first year college student to experience. Yeah, we'll go with that. I guess I just miss the familiarity of it all. I used to say "I can't wait to get out of this town", but to be honest, this town is home. This town is security. Sometimes I worry about the future. Will I get the house on the golf course like I always wanted? Will I get my dream job? I was somebody in high school and I'm trying to stay on the path to being someone in college, but it's harder than you think, friends. I often wonder what it'll be like to fast forward to my adult self and have that (hopeful) sense of security and consistency that I once had. But I guess to get to that point of consistency you have to enjoy the ride there. So that's what I'm focusing on now- enjoying the ride.
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